Feeling jealous ?
Feeling jealous happens to all of us, and it is usually a pretty tense experience.
What to do then when we feel jealous?
Well... everyone is unique and I imagine there are many choices to work with jealousy, but I can only share with you what I do & I hope it can give you some new ways of dealing with the dense waves of jealousy ;)
First know I am all about feeling life. I believe that’s why we are here in this body-soul on this earthly path remembering who we are and allowing ourselves to emanate our light full on!
I have found that feeling is always a gateway into healing and liberation. It removes the resistance to life as it is and gives us back the life force that was being drained in our battle against the "bad" feeling... So I feel the bitter moves within me and then listen deeply to the message beneath the hot flames...
Usually it is a big call to seeing how this person I am focusing on, is living, creating or being what I want!!!! She is a mirror and is pushing my buttons... and even though uncomfortable it is a blessing and an invitation to take action towards my dreamed reality.
This inner work is NOT about imitating, copying her style and path & losing my unique way of expressing the desired outcome I am in love with, but about owning my feelings and taking action to create the inner and outer dreamed experiences and objects I envision.
But... often it is hard to celebrate another's bliss when we are in the midst of a blurry hot wave where we are focusing on what is lacking, so instead of feeling fake about it, I find it more kind and loving with ourselves to start by celebrating our courage to allow ourselves to feel this uncomfortable jealousy.
Noticing and honoring our courage is a huge healing in itself!
But if you want to take another step in the direction of feeling lighter and you like forgiveness practices, here is one I love and trust. I enjoy its healing benefits every day (I do it with all of my loved ones and myself, plus any other person that is calling me to rise into healing action). It comes from Hawaiian Spirituality and it is simple and life changing.
Here it goes ;)
First think of the person.
Then silently say:
I forgive you,
I love you.
The beautiful thing is that even if you don't feel it's honest, it still works!
Try it, just do it and feel the shift in your energy body. Your heart center will soften and your mind will become more spacious.
I encourage you to do it with any one you feel triggered by, or have unfinished business/conflict with, and specially with yourself, because we can be extremely hard with ourselves and not even notice!!!!
May jealousy gift you clarity of your deep desires and guide you into taking the necessary steps to embody your dreams now.
All my love for you brave beauty💗
Please let me know how it goes in the comments below!!!
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When we choose to walk our talk and live in deep truth, all the debris rises up.
Yoga, Meditation, Art, Prayer, Dance and all healing paths untangle all those feeling, thought, sensations we have buried deep within and bring them to our inner eye so we can see them, feel them and heal them. And it is hard work, don’t you think?
Feeling is our gateway to freedom.
Usually anger comes up for me - I guess I pushed a lot of it down .... and, it is very life affirming to notice how every time I say yes to feeling it I become softer and stronger.
Clarity guides our steps when we decide to find the jewels in the pile of sh*t.
I ask for help, and sometimes the best way of asking for help is giving thanks!
I dialogue with Spirit in this way:
Dear Infinite within me and in ALL that is,
Thankyou for giving me the courage to feel the dense feelings of my inner ocean and receive their bold guidance, and for helping me keep my heart and mind open while afraid to go mad in the midst of chaos and pain.
Thankyou for helping me find the beauty within the piles of crap that rise up from the depths of my beings and for keeping my love and trust in the treasures of shadowland bright and strong.
Thankyou, Sat Nam, Namaste, Amen.
All my love,
Sometimes the space within is tight and it feels constricted to breathe. All chaos from the boys magic plays and ways is void of spark and I just feel mad.
So I notice the desire to judge this feeling and run away into shame and blame- but I take a step into its burning flame instead and become intimate with it.
It takes me back to growing up hearing feeling angry was wrong and dangerous... but sad was all right... (was it that way for you too?), so now I say YES to anger knowing it will not kill me or anyone to feel this hot feeling. Making it part of my inner space will actually heal me by showing me where there's a sore spot I need to tend... maybe by expressing what is at its core if can be helpful and received by the others involved, or just to my own Self and Spirit Friends and Guides if not, but either way it will allow me to own anger's mobilizing energy which is calling me into action to speak up my truth, needs, desires, wishe to keep being in alignment with living in the vibration of LOVE, that includes it ALL, because if only LOVE is real it needs to be all embracing to the diversity of physical, emotional, mental and spiritual experiences we live while in this earthly body!
Dear Infinite within me and in ALL that is,
Please help me live in the space of love, where I can feel all the waves of life and allow them to dance through me.
Guide my choices so peace, ease and bliss are my ongoing reality, and what I share with others.
Thankyou, Sat Nam, Namaste, Amen.🙏🏻💕
"The desired outcome already exists," says Guru Singh and I totally agree, do you?
Let me tell you more. The desired outcome, what we are dreaming up and want to feel, see and experience already exists and it is our work of love to find it in whatever size, shape and appearance it is in this now so we can claim it and allow it to become fulfilled into its majestic splendor.
If we just wait for the exact form we imagined when we dreamed it up it we might miss it! It might look totally different but hold the feeling we long for and are waiting to enjoy, That is why if we look for the feeling and pulsating life force of our desire is we will find it and love it.
I want to give you an example of a desired outcome in the form a feeling that I have experienced endless times in my life. It's the desire to feel beautiful. So how do I go about it if I feel everything except beautiful. Do I I lie to myself about it and fake it till I make it ?
I’ve tried it for sure but it’s not my style, I prefer all inclusive love and going deep into my shit because it holds the golden key to feeling free, by being fully me.
So I honor my feeling ugly, make some art with it, move it and a crack is created in my heart and inner eye to notice something in me that feels kind of beautiful... like choosing to be real and feel my life.
An inner smile softens my face and the tears clear out even more space for grace. Beautiful starts growing and every time I peek into my inner cosmos and the mirror too, I feel a little more beautiful - although ugly still hangs around my feeling-thought-sensations but in a dim light now because allowing to lead and shine shrivels my heart and makes me contract.
Just as with feeling beautiful, the outcome, the dream we long for is already here, its seed is alive and waiting for us to notice it so it can grow and bloom. I love working with how I want to feel because inner life guides the outer manifestations in ways that are beyond what our creative minds can.
I would love to know what are you dreaming up and if you can find it in your now!
All my love,
I want to feel my life so I can live it fully and be my dream. What about you beautiful One?
Meryl Streep said, " I want to feel my life while I'm in it". I love it.
I believe our power to feel is also our power to create and to heal, but feeling has been tricky land for me as I grew up labeling certain feelings as "bad" (mostly anger) - did this happen to you too?
I take tender care of my inner life, and have come a long way in reclaiming the beauty of emotional freedom by cultivating inner spaciousness to allow all feeling-thought-sensations to come and do their dance as they need, without having to fight or block any. What a relief to trust we can feel it ALL without falling out of love, because true love includes them ALL!
Here is a poem inspired by Meryl Streep's words
I love to feel my life while I’m in it.
And I love it ALL
by including it ALL.
ALL my feeling-thought-sensations are allowed,
because there is plenty of space and grace
for the unfolding blessed mess.
I love to feel my life while I’m in it,
dance its beats,
and just melt in it.
It speeds by
and stands still
while I breathe the breaths that are in it.
All my love!
Your roots and your wings are our birthright. Feeling grounded and inspired are basic needs to feel fully alive. There are as many ways for feeling rooted and winged as there are beings on our Earth and beyond, Kundalini Yoga is one of these paths.
I came to Kundalini Yoga when my Yoga practice felt dead. After praying for guidance and clarity Kundalini Yoga came to me, and different signs and prompts took me to embark on a KY teacher training that brought my Yoga path back and beyond life. Let me tell you why.
Kundalini Yoga is a science and art art that balances body, mind and soul. Its technology combines with precision and grace pranayama (breath), drishti (eye focus), mantra (healing sound-chant), bandhasv(body locks) and asanas (body postures- movements) to strengthen the nervous system, harmonize the glandular system, purify the blood and increase lung capacity. It really takes care of our roots and our wings.
Yogi Bhajan brought KY to the west from India, and courageously shifted its legacy from secret to open to ALL.. This Yoga path is powerful and subtle . Yogi Bhajan says that "in Kundalini Yoga the most important thing is your experience. It goes right to your heart. No words can replace your experience. Your mind may accept the words or it may not, but your consciousness will not accept just words."
-Yogi Bhajan, The Aquarian Teacher Training manual, p. 20
I love this. You really need to experience it, feel it and receive the gift.
As a mama of 3 beautiful wild boys who loves to be present in the magic now, I really appreciate everything that is simple and deeply life enhancing.. That is why KY is part of my daily medicine to feel rooted and winged, along with healing chocolate, soul art and living in nature's embrace.
KY has both short and long Kriyas which are healing sets of pranayama, mantra, drishti, mantra and asana created for specific healing purposes that go from strengthening your aura to loving your liver. I want to share with with you one of the most loved essential Kundalini Yoga kriyas: Sat Kriya.
Sat Kriya is a stand alone practice that in just 3 minutes can help you feel grounded, inspired, vibrationally aligned, emanating the frequency that reflects your true you. Keep reading to know more and when you try it, let me know in the comments!
Before I give you the instructions some benefits of Sat Kriya are strengthening the entire sexual system by stimulating its natural energy flow, relaxing sexuality phobias, enabling control of the sexual impulse and rechanneling the energy to creative and healing activities. Sat Kriya also improves general physical health, strengthens the heart through the rhythmic up/down of blood pressure. It is said in the teachings, that people struggling with mental conditions benefit from this kriya because mental problems are a result of unbalanced energy in the lower 3 chakras. Very grounding and liberating for only 3 minutes don't you think?
If you want to do Sat Kriya here is how!
Keep in mind that Sat Kriya stimulates and channels Kundalini energy - the essential and vast life force energy at our root - it must always be practiced with the mantra Sat Nam which means truth is my name. The time may be built up to 31 minutes but ALWAYS with a long, deep relaxation immediately afterwards. A good way to build duration is to start with 3 minutes and rest for 2 and continue in this way for 25 minutes. As you chant Sat pull in the navel, don't try to apply Mulbhand (root lock) which occurs naturally when the navel is pulled, so does your breath. The hips and spine do not flex, and the only motion is a slight up and down of the chest and arms with each Sat Nam.
This kriya was the first one I did and the one that guided me in the rebirthing of my Yoga practice and my Self, and it always returns me to the source of love within me & in All when I get lost. That's why I want you to know Sat Kriya is not just an exercise, it works on all levels of being, known and unknown. Please start slowly. Don't jump from 3 to 31 minutes even if you are feeling strong or are a yoga teacher. By pushing the physical body too much you might block the more subtle experiences of higher energies. I invite you to honor the power of this kriya and how it guides you in cultivating vibrational alignment by gently and steadily becoming more grounded and inspired in your magic now, instead of just having an intense higher consciousness experience you are unable to integrate, make yours & nourish your everyday ways of being and living.
Much love and wishes living attuned feeling rooted and winged.
Let me know how it goes in the comments below :)
You can read more about anything Kundalini Yoga related at www.3ho.org
I feel finding beauty everywhere is a powerful bridge to living in the space of love, attuned to the spark of infinity that lives within us an in all that is.
I'm passionate about doing whatever it takes to be successful in this practice. This means nourishing my Body-Soul with beautiful food on every level, physical, emotional, mental & spiritual.
Physically I call it Purple Food, intuitive eating deeply listening to my Body's hungers and giving it what it loves and needs.
I believe in eating only what I can digest to feel anchored in radiant health beauty, avoiding unnecessary energy leaks that occurr when my system is struggling with processing some kind of substance it does not need or love. I enjoy eating mostly raw, greens rule, rainbow vegetables and fruit join the dance, and cacao & tonic herb magic are infused into everything I create to make every bite medicinal for. Body & Soul.
I choose to eat this way because after exploring and following endless nutritional guidance paths - which all taught me something meaningful about food facts and body processes - I realized my Body knows best. If I deeply listen to my true hungers and trust what I hear, I can nourish my Body-Heart-Mind & feel rooted and winged!
I have been intimate with depression since I can remember (depression = dwelling in the dense realms where levity feels out of reach), and I am a very present mother of 3 wild boys conceived, grown and birthed with devotion and in the most natural and pristine way possible. This means my Body has shared a LOT of its resources and life force to co-create their bodies and then hold sacred growing-playing-praying-learning space for them to be ALL they are - while taking care of my own precious being & sexy papa too... that is why I am crystal clear and passionate about doing whatever it takes to support me in living my days in the vibration of love, that is all inclusive and conducive to enjoying abundant peace, ease & bliss. And I can say that what lies at the core of it is finding beauty everywhere and eating Purple Food = Healing Chocolate and superfood infused everything!
Sometimes I forget or hope my Body will respond differently to a certain food or practice because it seems so delicious.... but I am loudly reminded of the principle of uniqueness & return to what I do to live feeling cozy in my skin and bones so I can spread love & light to all.
Mental-Emotional-Spiritual nourishment comes from Kundalini Yoga, Soul Art and Nature's Embrace. Let me explain.
Kundalini Yoga is an art and a science that uses kriyas: sets of asanas, pranayama, mantra, drishti and yantra to help our body find vibrational alignment. Our physical, emotional, mental & spiritual being is worked out, cleared and returned to feeling attuned with the spark of infinity within us and in all that is. Kundalini Yoga is a deep & intense path that speeds up shadow work: the process of blocks to love (limiting patterns of feeling-thought-sensations that keep us from feeling we already are the dream we want to live) rising up to our awareness so we can witness them and receive their gifts- lost parts of our self that withhold our birth right of finding beauty everywhere and living in the space of love, at home in life with all its contrasts. All Yoga paths takes us back to reuniting with Infinity within us and in all that is, and Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bajhan leads my Yoga practice- with intuitive vinyasa bursts too. It is powerful medicine that delivers & anchors me back home to the vibration of love.
Soul Art is what I practice to creatively dialogue with the feeling-thought-sensations that move through my being as I walk this earthly path and experience its infinite contrasts. It helps me find gold in my sh*t while blissfully playing-praying with color, texture, word and image. I love it deeply because the layers never end and I can do it anywhere & anytime while the boys do their wild active or restful thing. Soul Art is Life Art, a celebration and contribution to living tuned into the space of love by practicing our self witnessing skills as we listen deeply, trust what we feel and see & co-birth it into form. We dwell in our inner realms more and can feel more spacious to feel both the dense and dark and the light and bright. And this gives us access to our our power to feel that is our power to create and is at the root of peace, ease & bliss.
Nature's Embrace is another way of saying I am in love with our beautiful Mother Earth, her Body, her creations and movements. I am devoted to caring for her in any way I can and prefer to live in her lush green and watery spaces as much as possible. Her five elements -earth, water, fire, air & ether- are at the core of my own healing work as well as all my offerings to you. Nature is, has and creates beauty everywhere don't you think?
I only share and offer what I believe can help you enjoy more peace, ease and bliss so finding beauty everywhere becomes as natural as breathing.
I create books and hold one on one & group sessions, Yoga-Art & Healing Chocolate monthly classes in Nature and seasonal mini retreats in California, Colombia and other beautiful places around the world.
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All my love,
So everyone goes to bed... three sweet wild boys who make my life a complex dream, a sexy, grounded and brilliant green man who picked me up hitchhiking that one and only time I tried, and a little spotted dog who beholds fear at the core of his heart and is always shaking no matter what... and I wake up!
I have been waiting for my sacred date. This time of quiet grace and space to be me without them. When my breath reminds me of death and takes me home to my holes of gold and shit waiting patiently to be felt with more depth and cared for so they can give me their treasures.
And what do I do?
I make healing chocolate every night infusing it with my prayers of gratitude and desires of being able to feel & celebrate how I am already the dream I long to be, now, yesterday and tomorrow. I am living my dream and this sweet and deep sometimes very bumpy segment of the day is the cusp of this grace. I witness the golden thread that weaves it all and I craft my party time all alone. Ecstatic, attuned to the infinite spark of life that lights me up and pumps my blood- the star seed that lives in all that is and subtly coaxes us to choose peace, ease and bliss with every kiss of time, seconds, minutes, hours and days are gateways into the space of love. The vibration of creation that withholds it all, dense and light, dark and bright... all the waves of existence are included in this vibrational land that transcends time and space.
I dive deep into my dance with the Naad - the vibration of creation - as I bliss and bless through yoga sadhana, breathing fire and chanting the primal sounds of the One in ALL. My body-soul is nourished and inspired to co-create beauty that wants to come through in the form of words and images charged with messages of before, after and now to guide and celebrate the web and ebb of what is, was and never ends.
So now you know why I love the late night and choose to wait for my sacred date with Self, day after day.
Although... sometimes I just collapse in bed next to my little 3 year old boyfriend and travel to the stars until the sunrise.
Contrast and balance dance and blast crystalline clarity to keep this earthly journey real.
All my love,
Do you have late night dates with your Self too?
I would love to know . Let me know in the comments below :)
Again I feel the need to affirm love is ALL inclusive. This means feeling-thoughts-sensations of anger, fear, anxiety and other uncomfortable experiences of our body-mind-soul are also part of love.
Love is space. The vibration of Infinity within me and in all that is. Inner vastness that is all encompassing and boundless. So there's no need to resist, repress or run away from what we feel-think-sense because there is plenty of space for all the waves of life to flow with grace.
Love is a space of grace. No good or bad... just different vibrations we get to taste and then choose which ones are ours to keep, depending if they support us or not in feeling we already are our dream - the one we long to be.
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It's sometimes very hard to feel I am my dream.
Feeling is our power. It fuels our life and guides our path. All feelings are waves of life force that flow and just want to reach the shore of our body-soul. Talking about feelings feels broken though, because thoughts and sensations are always intermingled with them, that's why I prefer to refer to them as feeling-thought-sensations.
Feeling-thoughts-sensations constitute our primal power of co-creation. They merge with infinity and help us manifest divinity in this earthly plane.
By dwelling in our innate spaciousness, so they can come and go without getting stuck in the muck of control. Repressing any of them disturbs our vibrant imprint because life force cannot be filtered or hindered in just one spot. If you fight one wave, war is on its way. Energy leaks and we become disconnected from the source of love. Love is space and grace.
Are feelings are as vast as the universe and beyond. When they are bright and light the need to fight is not alive, but when density takes over I want to run away and push it away - do you? But... density is sticky and it dumps me into a dark plunge that robs my breath and feels like a living death. So, instead of escaping I meet it, feel it as much as I can - without endangering my health - and we dialogue. It brings me gifts that initially look like sh*t but they eventually become golden and reveal how I can be more me.
Feeling is a spiral path towards being fully alive and embodied.
It's definitely easier to hide, but density (pain of the body-mind & heart) pain eventually catches up and takes over our life if the debris is not taken care of.
Even if it feels unreal, I am my dream. But in order to accept this as my living truth, this dream I am has to include everything - sh*t and gold.
Vast, spacious and cozy is the vibe I set within, otherwise the dream is fake and invites fragmentation and exclusion of vital feeling-thought-sensations that want to reach the shore of life in the here and now to crash and explode or implode with or without light.
Love is space and space brings grace.
I am my dream and I can feel it, what about you?